I can't help but wonder what God was thinking when he came up with this whole pain thing. Yeah, I get that it's our body's way of telling us, "Hey, there's something wrong" or "Okay, time to stop playing Wii boxing." But it seems to me that He could have designed it a little different. I for one, wouldn't mind a sort of snooze button for pain. You, know... tug on your right ear twice, twirl around like a ballerina, and then say the Lord's prayer... something like that to just take a little break.
I can hear you already... "Um, aren't pain killers a pain snooze?" I suppose to some extent. But anyone with chronic and/or severe pain can tell ya that there's no real snooze there. I know my pain killers don't so much take the pain away as make me not care that I'm in pain. And even when the pain subsides some, there's still that feeling.... kind of like you've been hit by a truck, then mauled by a dog, then dragged behind a horse by a rope feeling. I want a full on, pain snooze button.
It's hard not to think about pain and its purpose when it's been a constant companion for so many years. And although I understand the why of pain, it doesn't make me like it any more.
So, for now I will continue to dream about my pain snooze button, until that day when I am whole again.
So sorry Steph! Praying for some relief for you even now...a long snooze! BTW, I greatly enjoy reading your thoughts here. The other day I was thinking fondly of our late night Chinese food binges. Those were good times!
ReplyDeleteNo only will the pain one day end, but you'll spend years appreciating life more than the rest of us because of this.
ReplyDeleteI've often wondered and longed for the same thing, Steph. I pray for you often, whenever God brings you to my mind.
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